The stigma against users.

I'm kind of tired of having to justify my love of web browsing to everyone. It's as if there's this stigma against users that I don't quite understand. The internet is a network made up of users from around the world, so many rely on it for various forms of communication & education.

Sure there are people out there who spend hours online (WOW jokes aside) but that's not me. I go to events, museums, shows, movies, crawls, cons, parks and so on. I visit friends & family. I read, write, play etc...

I sit in front of a computer terminal all day, what else am I supposed to do? I play some games, read articles, share interesting, sometimes strange, links, photo's & information.

Does that make me loser? Does that make me any less intelligent than someone whose never used a computer? Is there anyone living in NYC who hasn't had to use a computer? Anyone who hasn't spent some time online browsing for fun?

I doubt it.

Don't judge me.

Anyone who parades around claiming to have this superior  knowedge over all others is obviously insecure about their own intelligence.

Why shouldn't I be allowed to browse & laugh? Is that a crime?

"What a distressing contrast there is between the radiant intelligence of the child and the feeble mentality of the average adult." - Sigmund Freud

Forever Uncertain

I often feel intimidated. I try to carry myself as someone who is confident but truthfully, I feel like an actor. I'm just playing the role of someone who hasn't got it all figured out just yet but who has ultimate goals. In someways I do but truthfully, I have no idea what I'm doing half the time. I make it up as I go along, a professional bullshitter.

If half-assing were a profitable skill, I'd be wealthy.

Sometimes, I look at the rows of books I rushed to purchase and wonder if I'll ever get through them all. I feel as if I'll forever be a novice. A pathetic version of an adult.

Oh female insecurity, you make me sick.

The more I read, the more I stop trusting my instincts. I'm trapped in this war against the female hormones wreaking havoc on my mind. I find myself second guessing everything & resisting the urge to act out my irrational spurts of anger.

At the same time, I contradict misogynistic tendencies & flip back & forth between a girl masquerading as a guy & a devoted feminist defending my sexuality.

"Do I contradict myself? Very well then, I contradict myself. I am large, I contain multitudes."

I need more posts before 2012

You know, in case the world does end, I want to leave something ins cyber space for the aliens to read.

Phone Apps = Better Connectivity

Now that I have a phone that's 100% operational, keeping up with these blogs & websites will be easier!