New Years Resolutions:

I want to live my life, as a bro. I want to be more manly.

0. Be Bro.
1. Workout for real
2. Write at least 2 times a week
3. Read at least 12 books from start to finish, 1 or more each month.
4. Watch a new film every week.
5. Call mom more.
6. Be a better vegetarian.
7. Disconnect from FB every now & then.
8. Be more financially independent.
9. Complete 3 new Cosplays/Costumes, maybe even a skit?!?!
10. Be more outgoing.
11. Finish projects.
12. Buy a tablet or netbook.
13. Buy a better camera.
14. Buy a new phone.
15. Buy more dresses & skirts.
16. Spend less money on useless crap T^T
17. Only buy quality items.
18. Sort my black bag of crap.
19. Organize my stuff more.
20. Do Yoga again!
21. Throw away garbage or make a scrapbook!
22. Stop drinking so much soda & eating too much chocolate T^T
23. Connect with more old friends.
24. Stop flaking out.
25. Speak up against injustice.
26. Open up to Mels family?
27. Forgive my enemies.
28. Do my photo/writing blog projects weekly!
29. Write a story, any story.
30. Make love everyday in everyway.

Strange Sensations.

I just came from a trip to see the Tomaselli Exhibit at The Brooklyn Museum. The work was amazing, so much detail & depth. Each part layered with found objects, part painting, part collage...

I feel overwhelmed looking at certain pieces, like the ones with figures of humans & birds specifically. There’s something about them, all the little cutouts building up a whole image of wonder & pure ecstasy. It's like a drug trip, I felt it just looking at them on the computer.

I get this flutter in my chest, or a heaviness, followed by a loss of oxygen, I have to remind myself to breath. Sometimes my eyes swell up with tears or my head gets hot & red. Right now my jaw hurts as if I've been eating jawbreakers.

In short, I experience many strange sensations.

For reasons unknown.

I'm listening to this song right now. Matches my mood perfectly. I originally bought a windows phone so I could have word in my pocket & write anytime, anywhere... Why did I stop writing? I've started again thanks to blogging but I'd like to write stories again.

I need to get over the feeling of not being good enough.
I'm always so self conscience...

Like now that people are reading this blog, I feel naked...
Like someone pulled the towel off of me as I walk out of the lavoratory of my life.

Ahhh, but I do enjoy being naked so here I am world, the naked Alex.

I've written a HUGE list of resolutions/goals for 2011. If the world ends in 2012, I'd like to do some of them at least! Lets see how I do, root for me readers!